I can't wait !

I have a killer cold and just can't think, so this will be brief.

I had an appointment with my Ob/Gyn today. I am starting Clomid my next cycle ! I am SOOO excited. I really hope this is the answer I have been looking for. I am so tired of trying and SO ready for our Journey with infertility to end ! Again, I have a cold from hell so that is all I have to say for now. I will write more once I finally start my Clomid. I am due for my cycle to start at any time, but I am so irregular who really does know when it will decide to come along. 

Wow... Really?

So, I was going to try and give boards another chance... until I fell across THIS.
Really ? Come on... they were all SO mad about me "trash talking" and my supposed  "trash talking" was no where NEAR this. THIS REALLY IS TRASH TALKING. I can't believe how vicious women can be. Especially most that are old enough to be my mother. I know infertility can make you a major B-word... but I in no way deserved to be put down this badly... Whatever. Screw em.

I guess the last few weeks are just out for me.
First me and Marks friends wife go at it.
Then when this originally started.
Then Mark and I's sister go at it.
And now more of this.

I just can't win. GO AWAY DRAMA !

Huge relief !

Let me tell ya... what a relief ! I had my HSG test done on April 1st. I had spotting, and then heavy bleeding and cramping all the way up until yesterday ! And it FINALLY stopped ! I am so happy, I was worried sick. I NEVER want to do that test again ! It was awful, and sooo painful. I just couldn't be happier that its all done and I can move on ! =)

UGH !

Gosh, I don't think I will EVER find a good support group online. I guess the only reason I make my age clear is because you would think that it would be easy for me to get pregnant... but I guess there will always be people there to judge you. I will probably stop posting on boards for awhile and just write how I am feeling here. It's funny that my entire family, and my husbands entire family are all so happy that we are trying... but then a few people that don't even know you, are telling you you're too young... I was thinking these boards where helping me from getting down in the dumps, but now I think I'm MORE down in the dumps then I have been for a long time...

Feels like we will never succeed.

Well, I suppose I will start my Blog off with an introduction of myself. My name is Krissy. I am a 21 years old, and I live in Iowa. I married my best friend, Mark, on February 22nd 2010. I have known Mark pretty much my entire life, and we started dating pretty young. We actually start TTC (trying to conceive) in 2007 (at the young age of 17) It is hard for me to be truthful about that to a lot of people, mostly because now I realize how I'm still so young, and 17 may have been too young. I guess either way, it doesn't really matter. We are still trying. I have not had a single pregnancy. No miscarriages, nothing. I hadn't gone to the doctor about it until 2009, when I was 19. I figured the doctors may be a little more willing to help sense I was at least an adult, and months away from marriage. Well, I was wrong. I spent from 2009 - mid 2010 at this clinic... and looking back now, they had no intentions of wanting to help me. We got no where, they did some blood work and said everything looked fine, and I did my basal temps. for about 4 months, and that is about the most of them helping me. I eventually lost hope and stopped going at all. I felt like I was just NEVER going to have a kid. I finally decided to give us a break for a few months, and celebrate my 21st birthday like everybody does. Now, our much needed break is done, and I was ready to get back out there. I changed clinics and changed doctors, I now have to drive 45 mins to this clinic but it is well worth it. From the moment I walked into the door my new fertility doctor had a plan and said we WILL get this done. He said that from my basal temps that I had done prev indicates that I'm not ovulating, and that is probably the main problem. He also wanted to re-evaluate my blood work to make sure PCOS isn't a possibility. He then told me to do an HSG test and we would most likely be starting me on Clomid when I returned. I have very irregular cycles, so I had to wait and wait for my period to come so I could go do my HSG test. Finally, it arrived. I went in for my HSG test on day 10 of my cycle. Which was actually just last Friday. I still can't believe how painful it was. Regardless, the HSG test came back fine. The doctor said it was all normal. Now, I am waiting for my next appointment with my fertility doctor on April 25th ! =) I'm very excited to finally have a plan. Although after almost 4 years of trying... it sometimes feels like nothing will work, and I'm getting excited for nothing. Some days are harder then others. It's hard to understand why I am so young and can't get pregnant. They always made it sound like in high school that if you just looked at each other wrong that you would end up pregnant. I only wish it were that easy.