Well...

Sorry for the lack of update. So much on my mind. Our appointment with my RE went okay. She want's me to ideally lose 35 pounds, and to get a few other things done (change blood pressure med, etc) and then we will start trying treatment at my next appointment at the end of April. She also wanted me to go in for an ultrasound to make sure my uterus was ready to go. Well, I went in right after my period (around CD10 or so) and my ultrasound showed that the lining of the uterus was thicker than it should have been for just finishing a period. My RE said she wanted to do an endometrial biopsy just to make sure there wasn't anything wrong. I figured all was fine, I honestly wasn't worried at all. Well, yesterday she called me and told me that the biopsy shows pre-cancerous cells and that after we are done trying for children I will need a hysterectomy. I am so shocked, I never in a MILLION years thought this was going to happen. So now, at only 25 years old, I get to think about when I will have my uterus cut out of me. I am taking it pretty hard. Sure, maybe it wouldn't be THAT big of a deal if I could at least get pregnant easily and pop out the kids I want before then. But, I can't. I have to spend thousands of dollars we don't have and cross my fingers I will get pregnant. For the pure fact of the financial aspect, I will NEVER have the number of kids I want before I need the hysterectomy. It breaks my heart. Just yet another reason I HATE my body. I see my RE next week now and I'm not sure if we are going to keep the same plan, or jump straight into trying to have some babies. I also see an Oncologist to discuss exactly what my future holds. This. Sucks.